first week efforts

Thursday. I haven't managed to get onto a day-cycle, waking up late. After my first attempt to approach companies, I realised the task before me. The most realistic bod to push is Michel, since I got all his info, but sadly I have found that his company, Absolut, is based in Sweden and the parent company in France.

I came to London with a lot of energy, with not quite enough done on the presentation and assuming that finding where the companies were would be relatively simple. I have found this to be exhausting. I am using my 5-year old laptop and it takes half a minute to do anything between keypresses and so I have had to rely on using Sofia's or Tav's machines. Couple that with my great ineptitude trying to find things, and you have a real energy sink. I also tried to resist engaging the guys, since they are in such a spin, and I have found myself and my mind used up in conversation that is far from effective, realistic, useful. It appears that we are talking about something we are going to do, but nothing actually happens. They are not to blame, I am. I have engaged them, and a similar thing has happened as January. Nothing actually happens.

So... I have one more week. Mamading has made some pleasant noises in my direction. I think I might be able to pull together the info on him, and find out where I am meant to go, and then hit companies next week. That is the plan. Also want to do something with Sofia, and perhaps a social bod through Servane. And would be nice to get Hexayurt too. Although my energies are a little twisted, and the learning has been limited wrt engaging the real world and mostly warped into the funny hole that is Arrington Court, there is still hope!

I knew the chances were small, and that was in relation to engaging companies, I find that the troubles seem to spring up closer to home. Locals are so fixed on what they do, they seem to be oblivious to opportunity. This is deadly to me, and I certainly need to realise that in order to get anything done, just do it. Engaging people, means energy is used up, attention is dispersed, and movement does not occur. I came to london ruthless and carefree in order to be able to penetrate the monster, the machine. In this first week, I have failed, and it is only thursday.

I could get away with the teaching experience because all the logistics were sorted out for me. Somehow things worked out so that I ended up with 30 kids in a room where the magic could commence. Never had to search and find them. This is the problem I face, and unless people help me with my blind spot, looks like magic isn't going to happen.

One more week to go. Let's see what else we can learn.